Is there a light at the end of the tunnel?  Do I have any hope, that even going to one of the best schools for education can help get me my dream career?

 For now, I work in a glorified soap shop, where *I know* people don’t treat me with even the least bit of respect I deserve.  Gossip flies around, suddenly I’m “immature,” a “gossip queen,” and people are warned to not trust me— Last time I checked, what’s considered “immaturity” in retail, is also known by the term of “professionalism” in the education world.  I have a degree, I’m a certified music teacher, and I am far beyond gossip and eavesdropping on others— especially in a soap shop.  Don’t flatter yourselves. I go to graduate school full time, sing in a professional choir and make money in your store. 

Anyway. Back to the real point of this post.

Everyday the headlines are so upsetting; budgets, executives of this, superintendents of that, principals of whatever school.

Everyday is a struggle in the world of education; this fact is saddening, because what do we do it for?  If schools took tenure away, how many teachers would still be standing?  You know, hollywood isn’t treated with this much security– if they want you out, you’re out.   But that doesn’t mean you’re untalented, or didn’t once hold a dream for yourself.

I despise how life has become this dog-eat-dog world of jobs and job security– and the times we become obsessed are the times of a recession.

It’s very difficult to not let it reach you, sometimes I feel utter hopelessness– and the only thing that keeps me going are my professors that can dream bigger for myself than I ever could.

I wasn’t  taught to reach for the stars, I was taught to reach for what’s around the block– I still can’t see it, but, hey- at least I know I could possibly get there.

I should probably sleep, but my mind is swimming with thoughts and ideas and gossip from the day.

Goodnight.